yesterday....oh....yesterday...

emm.....i dont know how to say this....but yesterday was one hard day...it really upset me and hurt my feeling as well as my good mood! i don't know why every time when i enter CTU classes i always either became angry or upset! everytime! the class was great.! seriously... but... i don't know.... it still upsetting my feeling. i guess that maybe whenever there are topics like 'Melayu' or 'Perpaduan kaum' or anything that had to do with Malaysia i became very emotional! please...it is not funny.....i am very concern about our people...malay people of course....i'm concern about what to become of them....i know that now there are a lot of improvements and achievement that had been achieve by them.....and i feel proud of that! but still, if we look back....there are still young people who do not think of their own future....they just want to enjoy their life and not thinking of anything else. if we compare the achievement made by our people with other races in our country....i could say that we still much left behind.....to think of this, i can't help myself from feeling sad. how am i suppose to help my own people if they don't in the first place.....help themself? i want to change all this but it is not possible as i'm still a student....there's nothing much that i could do except from advicing my friend and others. some people may think that i'm just being too emotional to think about it but for me if i don't think about my own people....then who will then? other races?? no, i don't think they will. we are the one who will someday rules this country.....people in our country expect great things from us .....the students.......in hope that someday the country will be rules with someone who is intelligent, visionery, responsible, good heart and concern with the peoples.......who will bring our country to higher level and peace. that's why the government provide education for us.....for this purpose....for this hope....so that we can replace them and make a better country in many aspects. when i see young people in our country abandoned their responsibility.....i couldn't help feeling angry and sad. we are not forcing them to be leaders......but at least take the challenge and try to give something to our contry and its people. like the saying..."don't ask yourself what had the country had done to you, but ask yourself what you had done for your country". remember this and believe me you will become a great person!